Pink-ish

Nothing to add. Just wanted to post a few pics. Don't know if I'm ever going to catch up with my summer photos (I've changed laptops and am still trying to figure my pics out). See you soon. Promise. 

Costa Vicentina '16

Back in early August me and 3 more friends met in Lisbon and headed south, always by the ocean. Our idea was to visit a few places along the shore - Costa Vicentina - one of the most beautiful landscapes Portugal has to offer. Honestly I am also a fan of the dry and yellow hay contrasting with the blue sky kind of view, so I am always delighted to road tripping throughout Alentejo. 

I could post here a few snippets from the views we got to see but I'll confess that since I am writing this so out of time I am doing it only to make it a permanent memory and editing photos would take a lot of time, so I'll stick with just a few, mostly of us (or me, I'm sorry). 

We started with Odeceixe, the northest of our destinations and then it was just going souther until we make it to Aljezur. We stayed every night in the same village, Almograve, which was actually one of my personal favourites, but had time to see Furnas, Vila Nova de Mil Fontes, Ilha do Pessegueiro, and my number one, Porto Côvo.

Volver

Hi, do you still remember me? Because I don't even remember myself.
I am well aware of my absence for the past few months. The only justification I can give you is being on holidays (also, to be noted: my computer is being fixed for ages now and I am so annoyed I wasn't given it back. It's been like more than a month and I swear it wasn't that big of a deal.Grrr.)

So, during this time away I've done a lot of different things and been in a lot of different places. I don't even know where to start, but I sure do love a few snippets from those times and I would like to share them here, at least just so they don't remain in my computer forever, useless. I know I will enjoy to check them later too, since I cherish all the moments represented through the photos. 

So, buckle up and here it goes, with no specific order:

These bunch are from a birthday party back in early July (it's September 3rd now, just so you get the idea -haha)

Fading

I still remember our first talk, the first time you said you adored me and my reaction towards that text. I remember it all. I remember you saying goodnight  everynight without me asking. And then because I asked for it. I've always thought that writing down what I feel would somehow make me weak because I know I won't feel this way forever. I still think that way but I also think I may like to read about you and mostly about me in the future. 

I've had a few drinks by the time I am posting this. Nevertheless I know what I feel. I feel we won't be in each other's lives much longer. I haven't seen you for more than a month. You're home but you said you didn't want to be with anyone. Not even with your friends. That makes me sad in so many ways. Firstly I miss you. Secondly I wish I could make you feel better. 

I guess it is unfair to sua all of this but none of it is new and you have heard it all from me in other occasions. I still love you and I still miss you. But I just don't know for how long now. And it makes me strangely sad. Also, I don't know how long I will make the effort and not give up on this, but I know myself and I know it won't be long until ir happens. And love will fase. Not only mine. Ours. 

Beach Bound

 

Summer is here in full swing. Holidays have begun, the sun is shinning strong and bright and the ocean is warm and salty as I like it. Drove down to Algarve with a few of my best girl friends and here we are, sunbathing, laughing, sleeping and not doing much else. Trying not to think much about college and the grades that are still to come in the next few days. Missing home a little bit to be honest, since it's been about a month now that I last went home. Missing a few friends as well, but that is really what I like most about summer: reuniting and gathering with all my loved ones, friends and family. The season has just begun and the best of it is yet to come.

Have a nice summer folks! 

Friday Morning, July 1st

I'm lying  in my bed. On the other side of the wall that separates our bedrooms you are packing your things to leave.

I was tired so I closed my eyes and left myself fall back asleep, maybe because I didn't want to say goodbye and would rather ignore what was going on. 

I'm now finishing this post and what I feel is bitter sweet. I am well aware you'll come back and everything is going to be the same. I also know you are going to have the time of your life and you sure deserve that moment for yourself. But if I think about myself, and even though I am sure I am just being silly for woring about this I am afraid I'll be a little bit (more) lost without you for half a year, or an whole semestre, as you prefer to put it. 

Life is good. Life with you and R. is even better.
This is always going to be your home.
See you next year. 

Love, M. 

A Whole

The part of me I like the most is my creative soul. I don't mean to say it in a pretentious way, but I like to like the things I like and I like to always be thinking about something new. I appreciate the importance I give to little things and how I value the small details that are sometimes insignificant to other people.

It often reflects on the way I see the world and therefore on my pictures. I also enjoy mixing them up and put them together, playing with shapes, colors and textures. 

That's what I enjoy most about myself. First because it makes me feel good on the inside, like as if I had no expectations about what others may think, I do it because it makes me feel good. I just get this feeling of fullfilment, pride and happiness, somehow. Second because I believe not everybody appreciate the same things I do and I like to think it makes me special, being my own way. 

So, the biggest compliment one can give me is saying I inspire others with my pictures, drawings, collages, or anything like that. It really makes my heart burst with joy and pride and I instantly start smiling, sometimes saying "ohhh" - haha. 

On the downside I must be honest and admit that I also get disappointed when someone I love and admire doesn't understand that part of me. I can't even explain it. I guess that's what I would fall in love with myself with. I can't be without that part of me. So, I guess I want to be loved for what I am, as a whole. And I couldn't live pretending I don't enjoy being the way I am. 

Maybe self-empowering much? Haha ;)

Wish you all a nice week!!